Interests:stuff that has to do with jekki ^-^ jk, altho that is 90% true.-drawing, watching anime, reading, listening 2 music, dancing, singing, EATING, and loads more!!! Expertise:-:|:- KoJiYong -:|:-
it's just so hard to trust someone. i really did expect better from a certain person but in the end, she failed me....again. i was a pretty big idiot thinking this time was different. aside from her not helping me like she promised, i also lost the trust of another for aiding her....and yet she did nothing. i like to believe in the better side of people but i guess that's just too much to ask. i am a true idiot. how could i have placed my trust in her like that? and now, not only have i not benefited, i have lost something. it really hurts me to know that she would betray me like that. i thought better of her i really did. i shouldn't have. i should've known better. i should've trusted past experiences and known better. i feel so stupid.
epik high's new song. amazingly catchy as usual. check it out! =]
So this is my first weekend home after "moving out" and I must say, it still didn't feel permanent to me when I was up there. Everything just felt...strange. Whenever I was in my apartment, I just felt like I was on a trip and waiting in some hotel room. The drive back home was a little trippy too. it almost seemed like I had just come back from a long road trip. Sitting at my same old desk now, it feels like I never left. To be honest, I don't really want to leave again =/ I'm waiting for things to get better let everyone said it will. I think I just miss my easy going CSM days where I barely had to study and got to do nearly whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Adapt...that's what I need to do. It's just a matter of time. Time changes a lot of things. I hope from the bottom of my heart that the changes that are to take place will be positive.
ok, as i said b4, i got a video clip of se7en as he was leaving the verizon store so here it is (be patient! you'll see him pretty close u toward the end)
wow, this last month has been pretty crazy. i am updating to share my exciting and yet utterly disappointing experience with se7en today =( so he was at the verizon wireless store in westlake giving out autographs, but poor planning led to 2-2 n a half hours of waiting with NOTHING to show for =( ok, almost nothing. he started hella late and didn't sign for the full 2 hours so we never got an autograph!!!! *crying* and then after he left, they told us that they had some extra signed posters, but ppl wouldn't get in line and they didn't bother trying to get them in line so the ppl pushing and shoving got the posters and we left with NOOOTHIIIING!!! NOT EVEN AN UNSIGNED POSTER!!!!! i am so peeved. the only thing that i got out of this was a video clip of him wen he was leaving then store. the video actually turned out pretty well though, i was right next to him at one point :D so close and yet, so far *sigh* i doubt someone like him will ever come back to daly city for something like this again. my sis and i were saying, hey, if he has to be in LA next week, then he's gonna be at the SFO soon. lets go camp out there and stalk him! lol again, so close and yet, so far....
ok, aside from that, finals are coming up, and my adventure at CSM is coming to a close. boy oh boy, wat a roller coaster this has been. i'm happy but so sad at the same time. i'm glad that i'm going where i have wanted to go for so long, but i'm so depressed about leaving my friends and family. no more hillsdale runs, no more drip coffee, visits, no more spring flings by the pond, no more singing and banging ;) in the senate office......i'm gonna miss it all....a lot. and my family. i don't noe how i'm gonna be able to survive without my family. i still have so much time b4 i have to leave but i'm already feeling nostalgic =( the irony of it all.....seriously.......
ok, so i will post the video that i got of se7en (no autographs, aaarrrrgghhhh *sniff sniff*) as soon as i upload it, but in the meantime, here's a video of gackt singing "love letter", my favoritest song by him *swoon* lol jk...kinda....
